ok so it isn't easy

to blog here everyday. LOL Papa Bear was home all weekend up until today and he thinks I should pay attention to him ;).

As for my other goal of school, I am getting closer. I sent off the paper work I need to send.

We had Turkey and trimmings yesterday because of work schedules. It was fun and we had good food.

Things I am thankful for:
Having a steady job
Having a roof over our heads and food in the kitchen.
My 3 wonderful children and my wonderful grandson
The fact that I am going to be a "Oma" again :)
For mom and dad still being with us
For a wonderful! mother-in-law.

Hello

We had a great vacation north to see my son at university. Now I am home and determined to get back to eating healthy and exercising. So I am going to start taking pictures of everything I eat or drink. That will be my food diary. I am also going to get back to doing my Wii Fit. I went hiking yesterday and am going to go today. I am going to get some recipes together that have good veggies and fruit and such in it for the boy to eat better. I am going to make it a goal to blog here everyday this week (Nov. 23 - Nov. 29). And speaking of goals, I have another one. Last year I tried to go back to school and freaked out. Just couldn't do it. Well I am in the process of registereing for online classes and I am determined to follow through this time.

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I found 2 excellent blogs on the subject and thought I would post them here.

JaxWritersSpot

Revolution of Real Women

I was thinking about my first crush which then lead to my first Hollywood crush then on to first loves and so forth. I thought what the heck i will blog about it LOL. It gives you something to read about me anyway :).

Gary B. I was 5 he was in his 20's. He was a jockey and rode for my dad. I have a picture of him somewhere, but can't find it.

Kevin G. We were both in Kindergarten. He was my first "boyfriend".

Scott B. He was my boyfriend from 1st to 3rd grade. We might have even married ;) if my parents had not decided to move us far away :(. We wrote to each other for a few years and then we lost contact with each other. Wonder where he is now.

1977. Star Wars. Hans Solo. Yes I have loved Harrison Ford ever since!

7th or was it 8th grade I had a crush on Tony S. He was a year older then me. He did not know I existed. Though my half brother convinced me to write a love letter to Tony and there was the time I ran into him full on. Honestly I DID NOT SEE HIM! He got very mad at me, which is totally understandable. When I was in 9th grade I became good friends with his younger brother, Vince. I wonder where Vince is now?

10th Grade. Algebra. Cute boy sitting in front of me, Raymond Melvin M. Oh how I longed for him to see past the outer shell of me and get to know ME. I was convinced that he would love me forever if only he would give me a chance. But alas it never happened. Though once again I ran smack dab into him. He didn't get mad, he just laughed.

May 1983 is when I met Daniel John S. aka Danny. He was my first "true love". I was going to marry him! Until "she" came back into his life. There are days I still think about what if. But I know it could never be.

Off to College: Brian M. First boy I met on campus. He was total opposite of Danny. We had a good time together until I was ready to move on. A stupid decision I might add. Thomas Mitchell B. I married him had 2 beautiful children and a lot of heart ache.

Keanu Reeves is once of my Hollywood crushes. Fell hard for him in the role of Paul Sutton "A Walk in the Clouds".

Then I met Gerald Paul B. He is a good man. I love him. We have a beautiful, smart, sensitive kid together. What can I say marriage is hard work.

one month

and no posts.... I am not good at blogging. I really want to be. But truth is I am not.

Anyway i bought the Wii fit. I love it! I have been using it a lot. I have also been out hiking in the desert. Owen goes with me a lot. We have a great time.

Cleaning.... ugh not so good in that area. Must work on that.

being a good wife.... things were going good, then not so good, then ok. Working on it.

I will try hard to post at least once a week. Though I am going to be gone for a week starting the 13th. :)

Exercise...

The benefit of exercising has really hit home. I was haveing trouble with elevated blood sugar. It seemed no matter what I ate I could not get it under 100. I finally just stopped tracking my sugar level. Well a couple of weeks ago my friend and I started going to the gym. We have been working out and it feels great. For 2 days now I have been on a binge eating of candy and chocolate. I still worked out at the gym. I decided to check my sugar levels yesterday it was 99 today it was 104. Now before my levels have been 120/130. So exercise is the key to controlling my sugar levels.

Why I went on a binge and how to over come.
Why is simple, I am very upset and food is a comfort. How to over come using food as a comfort is harder. I have a book that I need to reread called "Life is Hard. Food is Easy". by Linda Spangle, RN, MA. In the book she outlines 5 steps to over coming emotional eating. I will blog more on this as I read it.

On a side note I have the pictures of before (messy house) I just need to get them posted.

Housekeeping

I did not get the clean gene. I have a very hard time with the whole cleaning house stuff. I found a great book years ago called "Messies Anonymous" by Sandra Felton. Since then she has expanded and come up with many books, personally I wish I had never lent out my original copy, I felt it was the best.

My messiness is a source of stress to my hubby. Though he knew when he met me that I was not a good house keeper, I have great intentions, but just end up spinning my wheels. Like right now I should be cleaning, but I am here :o). My goal in this area is to get better, i know that being a "cleaning" (i.e. the perfectneverhaveanythingoutofplace house keeper) I will never be. But I do have lots of room for improvement.

My plan of attack: lists :o)

Daily stuff I need to do:
Wipe down bathroom counters & sinks
unload and load dishwasher
At least 1 load of laundry (washed, dried, AND folded, and put away)
vacuum
Keep desktop cleared
Dust (we have so much of it here in the desert)
Help Owen pick his room up before bed.

Ok now for the frieghtening truth. Before pictures: (to be added as soon as I take them and get them processed)

His needs, Her needs.

His Needs, Her Needs by Willard F. Harley, Jr. is a book on building an affair-proof marriage. it focuses on what each partner needs in a relationship and what the other can do to give that to them. It is a good place to start, right :).

So for starters, The #1 thing a man needs is sex, yep. He wants it available always. But a women doesn't work like that at all, we need a few things in order to find sexual pleasure. So both partners need to understand these aspects and work to make it great for both. A women needs to be available for their husband and not just go through the motions. A husband needs to realize a wife needs touch, affection, words, through out the day so that his wife will be ready and wanting. It is amazing the human populace reproduce :o) we are such different creatures in so many ways.

This particular need we have covered fairly well, we could use a little refining, but for the most part hubby and I have this one down :o)

Beginning...

This blog will be about me trying to find my way. Trying to come to terms with who I am and make changes to things that can be changed (i.e. weight, being a better wife and mother) and accepting things that can not be changed.

Things that will be listed here:
Food and my addiction.
Becoming a better wife and mother.
Cleaning house and how I have over come being a messy.

I am a amateur photographer. All photos are mine (unless I post otherwise). Please DO NOT barrow, steal, use, or copy any of the photos. Thank you.